My Angel

You guys, I have the most amazing mother ever. 

So today I was having kind of a rough day and so one of my friends was gonna come over to my house and hang out with me. But he called me and told me that he couldn't come because his dad was going to take him fishing instead and that he will try to come tomorrow. So trying too keep myself from cry and trying not to sound to sound too upset I told him that was fine. So of course as soon as I get off the phone I just break down and start crying because I had been really looking forward to seeing him. So I am laying on my bed crying and my mom comes in my room and sees that I am crying and she immediately comes over and asks me what's wrong and so I told her and that just started another round of tears. So my mom just sits here and holds me and talks to me trying to calm me down. And guys at that moment I seriously realized how lucky I am to have her. I don't know what I would do without her. She is seriously my shinning star and I love her so much. 

Still I Rise

You may shoot me with your words,

You may cut me with your eyes,

You may kill me with your hatefulness,

But still, like air, I'll rise.

-Maya Angelou

 

 

This poem... It is inspiring. No matter what happens in our lives we cannot let others control them by what they say or do to us. We cannot let anyone or anything get in the way of our dreams. They are are dreams, it is our own life, it is ours to live. Even if someone is trying to protect us from choices we might make we need to find out for ourselves with the consequences whether it was good or bad. That is how we learn. That is how we grow. Even if people try to cut you down and tell you, you can't, that is when you stand and say "Wanna bet? Because I can. Watch me." That is the power of "I". There is only sometimes "We", but there is always "I". It's your life. It's your choice. Don't let other people's opinions of you change your opinion of yourself.

My Rollercoster Ride

Guys, life is truly a rollercoster ride. At times your high and enjoying life other times you are dropping down at a very scarry height wishing for the ride to be over. But there is always that guardrail that catches you at the bottom when I don't want to go any further then it lifts you back up. This goes on for a while until the ride is finally over and you get to return home.

My weekend started out as a high ride rollercoster, then last night it suddenly turned to a steep down hill.

You know that moment when you relize that you have royally screwed up and you just wish a sorry could fix it and everything would be back to normal? Well life is no fairytale. That's not how it works. When you hurt someone they tend to be very defensive and not so forgiving...

Because of my blindness have put my relationship with my best friend on the line, and it hurts. It hurts the both of us. I want to fix it, but I have no idea how to do that. The last 12 hours has basically been on and off crying for me *wipes away tears* I can't loose my best friend for something stupid that I did and I am still trying to figure out how to fix this.

This is one of those things that makes it so you can't focus on anything. You just want to curl up and cry, so instead you just sit there half the day staring into space not thinking about a thing because you are upset and don't know what to do.

This has been my day so far.

So how are you? Better than me I hope.

XOXO,
Rebecca

Do You Care?

Ever wonder why life just doesn't seem fair sometimes? That's because it's not. No one ever said life was fair. We have only been told it will be worth it. And it will be. I've always wondered why people get so depressed. And this weekend I had the chance to get a glimps of that.

People don't see the true reason behind why someone might be shy, loud, annoying, rude, quite, smart, not so smart, upset, etc. Sometimes we need to take a step back, stop worrying about ourselves, and pay attention to the people around us. Stop judging if you don't know the reason behind why they are acting the way these people act.

I found out yesterday that some kids from my church, who I thought were loud, annoying, rude and dissprespectful, their parents are going through a divorce. Another girl in my church, she is really shy and quite, her mom recently left her, her siblings and her dad. People handle things differently. That is why we cannot judge people on how they act.

This weekend, one of my friends tried to commit suicide because his girlfriend broke up with him. I know you probably think that it is a stupid reason, but read on. He thinks he will never find someone that he loves ever again, and someone that loves him back. His family didn't care that he was going to kill himself. Now that changes things, doesn't it?

It broke my heart. But because I reached out to him and helped him realize that there is a purpose in life, he is still alive and has promised to never try that again. Instead of judging and criticizing people we need to reach out to them. Help them. It honestly could save a life. I know that first hand.

Everyone is here on this earth with a divine mission from God. He has a plan for us. And he has a plan for those around us. We are all here at this time together. Are you going to waste your time judging, criticizing and bring people down, or are you going to help those around you and make them feel and realize that they are loved. Sometimes all it takes to save someone is to just let them know that you care.

I know what bullying can do to a person, I was bullied. And sometimes I still suffer from it. But I have friends that have found me, picked me up and made me confident again. I can finally stand with the help of my friends, because that is all it takes. And I bet you never expected to hear that I was bullied. So that's what I am saying. You can't judge someone especially if you don't know their past and story.  

See life really isn't fair, but by not judging and being a friend instead you can make someones life better and in a certian way, fair.

Pep Talk on Life

Hey guys! So I found this little video. You guys should watch it! This little kid is so adorable! And I love this video! It totally made my day!

Quote for the day; Try a little hard to be a little better. -Gordon B. Hinckley (previous prophet of the LDS church)
Guys, don't waste away your life. It's not worth it. Make your life worth it. If you try a little hard each day then each day you will get a little better. Make the life you want to live, then live it. But never settle for something less than what you deserve.

Thought of the day

Just a thought for today; Life is worth it. When we were in Heaven we planned our whole future. The things that would happen to us, the choices we would make, where we would live, who our family would be, who our friends would be, where we would go to school, and what we would do with our lives. Everything bad or good that happens to us in our lives, we planned before we came down to this earth. We planned our stories.

 So just remember that when live doesn't seem fair, it is.
You decided how your life goes. But never forget that in all the rush of life, and all the "Oh no's" and "I love life" and whatever else, take a break to enjoy a sunset, spending time with those you love, and even those you don't. Don't forget to include God in your life plan, because with God, everything will be fair in the end.

Just Some Random Thoughts

I'm sitting here at my computer drinking a nice steaming cup of hot chocolate, listening to a bit of Taylor Swift We're happy, free, confused and lonely in the best way; It's miserable and magical oh yeah; Tonight's the night when we forget about the heartbreaks, it's time uh uh.... *clears throat* and thinking. I'm not really thinking about anything in particular, just thinking. You know those times, when you start thinking about one thing and it leads to a million other thoughts? I am having one of those days.

I am thinking about this new year and what it might have in store for me. What new oppertunities and chances I am going to have to try new things. I am hoping, no, looking forward to a fantastic year! I am looking forward to the good times that I will have this year, and even the bad times.

I think some times you can learn more from the bad times than the good if you know how to take it. But if you are even better, you can take the bad times and make them good, then you will never truly have a bad time.

I am planning on making the best of this year. I will take everything in porportion and take it as it comes. I am planning on complaining a heck of a lot less (because between you and me, I complain WAY too much).

I am wanting to find just one skill that I can learn this year, work on it and improve it to the best of my abillity. I am going to push myself to my limit probably more than once this year, but that is okay because that is how you learn, grow and test your strength.

So you want to know what I am thinking right now? "Bring it on 2013!"